sooooo. I'M DONE WITH USMLE STEP-1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I took it on June 2, and I've never felt so free in my life. I'm back home with my family and I'm being as lazy as I possibly can. I've lost 15 pounds since I've started med school, and I'm struggling to gain it back. I didn't even realize that I lost 5 more pounds during the last month of STEP 1 studying. It wasn't until I got home and everyone kept making comments about my weight. I decided to step on a scale, and saw that I weighed 130 lbs. I haven't weighed 130 lbs since junior high. I had also been wearing the same baggy boyfriend jeans and t-shirts for the past few months, so I didn't really notice the extra 5 lb weight loss. But now that I'm home sleeping and eating all day, I've gained 4 lbs!!! woo hoo!!!
I'm not ready to start school again. 3rd year starts on the 28th, but we start orientation next Monday. I have my surgery rotation 1st. 8 weeks of hell. I HATE surgery. I don't want to be a surgeon, it's just not my thing. I'm praying that those 8 weeks go by quickly, or that I'll miraculously develop a love for surgery. I'm actually scared to start 3rd yr. What if I just totally suck at everything? Haven't had any patient interaction since early April, and I feel like I've forgotten how to do a full H&P. Well, all I can do is pray and work as hard as I possibly can. 2 MORE YEARS LEFT!!!!!!! Jeez, time is flying by!!!!
So now that STEP 1 is done, I need a boo. Hahaha j/k. I'm not in a hurry. I'm going to be patient and leave it to God. And besides, STEP 1 broke me DOWN and I'm still trying to recover. I hadn't shaved my legs in MONTHSSSSSS and stopped taking care of my hair. My feet, oh Lord, my feet look a HOT mess! Oh and my eyebrows are just eeeew! And I feel like I've lost ALL fashion sense. But STEP 1 is DONE, and I'm taking my life back.
