So, I was totally fine a few minutes ago.
Now I'm suddenly in tears. I don't know what happened. I just started thinking about how I was tired of being single. I've been without a boyfriend for about 4 years now. 4 YEARS!!!!!!! I still can't believe it. If someone told be back in 2007 that I would still be single now, I wouldn't believe them. I honestly don't know how I made it this far. I have to thank God. I know that I've learned many new things about myself in the process. I also know that what I desire in a relationship has changed also. But I'm still frustrated. I don't want to be alone. Everyone wants to be in love. The things that makes it even crazier is that I don't even date. I may meet a guy that likes me, but I usually refuse to go out with them. They also tend to realize that I'm not interested so they stop calling/texting/facebooking lol. I know many people that ask how I expect to meet someone if I don't put myself out there and date. I'm waiting for God. When a guy approaches me, I may not automatically chase them away. I'll give them my # and talk to them a few times. But from the moment they approach me, I start to pray. I ask God if this is my husband, and I ask him to give me a sign. So for many guys I know that he's not the one God picked for me, so I don't even bother going on a date with them. I don't want to waste my time, or his.
So yes. I am frustrated. It is hard to be patient sometimes. Everyone keeps saying "soon." Oh don't worry, you'll find someone soon, maybe after your first year of med school. Oh don't worry, it will be soon, probably after you take your 1st board exam. Soon soon soon. I thought soon basically meant, a short period of time. So I guess it's true if you consider 4 years to be a short period of time.
I know God has a plan and I have faith in him.
Soon.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Last Weekend
Last weekend was a lot of fun.
Went to the wedding of two of my classmates. They are such a cute couple! I wish them the best! The wedding was fun, and it was sort of a mini reunion with the a few of my other classmates. Everyone is on different rotations all over the place, so it was nice seeing some people. I also realized I hadn't been to a wedding since 2008!
Also went to the graduation for the 4th years at my school. It was really nice. I cried a few times. I'm soooo ready for graduation next year. The countdown has definitely begun! OH! and guess who I saw at the graduation? Well remember when I went to that grad reception with my egbon and his friend? Well it was the girl that he was all up on that night. I saw her at first and I knew she looked familiar. I saw her later when I was taking a pic with one of the 4th years and realized that they were friends. I didn't say anything, but now that I think about it I WAS kind of staring at her. lol Whatever. I still think I'm cuter than her. Her booty is bigger than mine, but wurrever. LOL.
Ok. That is all for now.
Went to the wedding of two of my classmates. They are such a cute couple! I wish them the best! The wedding was fun, and it was sort of a mini reunion with the a few of my other classmates. Everyone is on different rotations all over the place, so it was nice seeing some people. I also realized I hadn't been to a wedding since 2008!
Also went to the graduation for the 4th years at my school. It was really nice. I cried a few times. I'm soooo ready for graduation next year. The countdown has definitely begun! OH! and guess who I saw at the graduation? Well remember when I went to that grad reception with my egbon and his friend? Well it was the girl that he was all up on that night. I saw her at first and I knew she looked familiar. I saw her later when I was taking a pic with one of the 4th years and realized that they were friends. I didn't say anything, but now that I think about it I WAS kind of staring at her. lol Whatever. I still think I'm cuter than her. Her booty is bigger than mine, but wurrever. LOL.
Ok. That is all for now.
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