I went on a date yesterday. It's the same guy I went out with last year on my birthday. Why did I go out with him? Because I thought maybe we could actually work. Well I was WRONG. A few weeks ago, I was sitting and talking with my mom, aunts and uncles. They were running through a list of potential bachelors in the metroplex. I rejected all of them of course. So then they brought up this same guy and they all kept saying how much they liked him, how nice he was, and how nice his family was. So I guess I felt a liitle pressured. Well, a few days after that, he came to my church for a special even tthat we had. He looked nice, and I thought that maybe I was just being a bitch. So I decided to pursue things a little further. We started talking/texting like everyday. I realized he was a really nice, sweet guy. It seemed like we had the same view on a lot of things. So I was kind of excited when we decided that we were going to meet up and go to one of my favorite restaurants.
Well, things didn't really go as I imagined. I realized that I just was NOT attracted to him. I really enjoyed talking to him on the phone, but in person, it was just different for some reason. I realized I'm not really attracted to him. He's actually pretty cute, but I'm just not attracted to him. So now he really likes me, and I'm trying to find a way to stop talking to him. I just can't do it. For a second I thought that I was finally going to be in some kind of relationship. NOPE!
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Sooo...
Been so busy lately.
I am really happy with my residency program. I thank God that I matched here. I get along well with the residents, even though some of them kind of get on my nerves sometimes lol. All my attendings are super nice and they are really there to help us learn. I'm still adjusting though. One day I feel SUPER smart, and the next day I feel completely useless and dumb. There is just sooooo much to learn. I honestly only feel smart 10% of the time, haha. I let the smallest things get to me, and it's something I really need to work on. I thought a patient had hypocalcemia, but I forgot to check the albumin level. So she wasn't really low on calcium. I felt dumb for like 2 whoooole days! I was like, "OMG everybody is going to think I'm so stupid because I forgot to check her albumin levels, and they're going to wonder how the heck I made it out of med school, and then they're going to regret that I matched into their program!!!" I just need to get over it, and accept that I'm going to make mistakes.
I gained some weight. I think this time last year I was 15 pounds lighter. I think I look fine. Yesterday I ate 22 cookies, and I'm eating more as I type. However, my parents and everyone at church thinks I'm fat. I've gone from a size 2 to a size 6. I honestly don't want to lose weight. But there will be no peace unless I lose at least 5 lbs. Nigerian parents can be so silly sometimes. Last year they were shoving food in my face, and praying that I would gain some weight. Now I gained the weight and it's a problem. Bleh
A few months ago I ran into this guy I went to college with at the store. Since then he's been trying to woo me. Prior to this, I had seen him like 5 years ago. Now he keeps telling me that he wants me to marry him.?????? Since I have known this guy, I've probably only talked to him in person for a total of 15 minutes. He's delusional. He has an MPH/MBA, and he ALWAYS has to remind me of it. He even put it as his signature in the facebook messages. Who the heck has a signature on facebook? LAME. He's always sending me pictures of himself all dressed up. But I'm not going to lie, it is very entertaining. So I allow him to think he has a chance so that I have something to make me laugh on those slow nights when I'm on call. I've said some pretty means stuff to him, but he just keeps coming back for more.
That's all for now.
I am really happy with my residency program. I thank God that I matched here. I get along well with the residents, even though some of them kind of get on my nerves sometimes lol. All my attendings are super nice and they are really there to help us learn. I'm still adjusting though. One day I feel SUPER smart, and the next day I feel completely useless and dumb. There is just sooooo much to learn. I honestly only feel smart 10% of the time, haha. I let the smallest things get to me, and it's something I really need to work on. I thought a patient had hypocalcemia, but I forgot to check the albumin level. So she wasn't really low on calcium. I felt dumb for like 2 whoooole days! I was like, "OMG everybody is going to think I'm so stupid because I forgot to check her albumin levels, and they're going to wonder how the heck I made it out of med school, and then they're going to regret that I matched into their program!!!" I just need to get over it, and accept that I'm going to make mistakes.
I gained some weight. I think this time last year I was 15 pounds lighter. I think I look fine. Yesterday I ate 22 cookies, and I'm eating more as I type. However, my parents and everyone at church thinks I'm fat. I've gone from a size 2 to a size 6. I honestly don't want to lose weight. But there will be no peace unless I lose at least 5 lbs. Nigerian parents can be so silly sometimes. Last year they were shoving food in my face, and praying that I would gain some weight. Now I gained the weight and it's a problem. Bleh
A few months ago I ran into this guy I went to college with at the store. Since then he's been trying to woo me. Prior to this, I had seen him like 5 years ago. Now he keeps telling me that he wants me to marry him.?????? Since I have known this guy, I've probably only talked to him in person for a total of 15 minutes. He's delusional. He has an MPH/MBA, and he ALWAYS has to remind me of it. He even put it as his signature in the facebook messages. Who the heck has a signature on facebook? LAME. He's always sending me pictures of himself all dressed up. But I'm not going to lie, it is very entertaining. So I allow him to think he has a chance so that I have something to make me laugh on those slow nights when I'm on call. I've said some pretty means stuff to him, but he just keeps coming back for more.
That's all for now.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
STUPID!
Started residency on Monday.
I feel so STUPID! I've been on vacation since March, and I feel like I've forgotten almost everything. It's been kind of hard adjusting to the new electronic medical records in one hospital, while getting used to paper charts in another hospital. No excuses though. I need to work hard and do what I gotta do!!
Earlier this week I also found out that the guy I have had a crush on for well over a year is now MARRIED!!!!!!!!!! I had nooooo idea. I got on his facebook and saw that everyone was congratulating him on his new baby. NEW BABY? I did some further investigation and discovered that he has a wife in Nigeria. WTF. I felt sooooo STUPID.
I'm tired of talking about marriage. Right now I don't really care. I think it bothers my parents way more than it bothers me. I feel like my training and career are more important right now. I'm the only single person in the group of interns in my program. Everyone else is either married or engaged. It really bothered me at first, but now I'm just like WHATEVER!! There is a reason why I am still single, and I know that God is in control.
I'm TIRED! Thank God I'm off tomorrow!
I feel so STUPID! I've been on vacation since March, and I feel like I've forgotten almost everything. It's been kind of hard adjusting to the new electronic medical records in one hospital, while getting used to paper charts in another hospital. No excuses though. I need to work hard and do what I gotta do!!
Earlier this week I also found out that the guy I have had a crush on for well over a year is now MARRIED!!!!!!!!!! I had nooooo idea. I got on his facebook and saw that everyone was congratulating him on his new baby. NEW BABY? I did some further investigation and discovered that he has a wife in Nigeria. WTF. I felt sooooo STUPID.
I'm tired of talking about marriage. Right now I don't really care. I think it bothers my parents way more than it bothers me. I feel like my training and career are more important right now. I'm the only single person in the group of interns in my program. Everyone else is either married or engaged. It really bothered me at first, but now I'm just like WHATEVER!! There is a reason why I am still single, and I know that God is in control.
I'm TIRED! Thank God I'm off tomorrow!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I'M A DOCTOR!!!!
I'm a doctor now!!!! Praise GOD!!!
Haven't been on this thing in over a month.
Anyways, graduation was like 2 weeks ago. I walked across the stage in my Christian Louboutins to receive my doctorate degree. Everything went well. About 50ish people came to the graduation (you know Nigerians roll deep). I'm sure more people would have attended if my school wasn't 4 hours away. I had a a special thanksgiving service at church the week after and that was also a success. I got LOTS of money!!! haha. Well it's all gone now. I used all that money to pay the rent in my new apartment and to buy all those random things that are needed when you move into a new place.
I've moved into my new apartment and orientation starts June 25th. Official first day of residency is July 2nd!!!!! Crazy!! The time is just flying by!!
Nothing else major has happened.
That's all for now.
:)
Haven't been on this thing in over a month.
Anyways, graduation was like 2 weeks ago. I walked across the stage in my Christian Louboutins to receive my doctorate degree. Everything went well. About 50ish people came to the graduation (you know Nigerians roll deep). I'm sure more people would have attended if my school wasn't 4 hours away. I had a a special thanksgiving service at church the week after and that was also a success. I got LOTS of money!!! haha. Well it's all gone now. I used all that money to pay the rent in my new apartment and to buy all those random things that are needed when you move into a new place.
I've moved into my new apartment and orientation starts June 25th. Official first day of residency is July 2nd!!!!! Crazy!! The time is just flying by!!
Nothing else major has happened.
That's all for now.
:)
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Just You?
Yesterday was one of my best friend's birthday. We went out to eat at a really swanky restaurant in the nicer part of town. I also finally got to wear my new Bottega Veneta black pumps. She brought her boyfriend, which was cool. My other best friend also brought her boyfriend along. That was something that I was not expecting. So it was a little awkward and I kind of felt like the 5th wheel. I felt okay until the end when the waiter asked how to split the check. "So them two, them two, and just you? right?" Right. That was when I was well aware that I was still single. I said a prayer and said Lord, this time next year I want to have someone to go on dinners with me and my girlfriends. I eventually got over it on the ride home.
Well, then I get home, sign on to Facebook and see that another one of my classmates is engaged. UGH! Then the feeling returns again. I hate this feeling. I really do. I have been single for 5 years now, and it's not getting easier. I'm just tired, frustrated and MAD that I'm allowing this to bother me.
Bleh.
Anyways. I've been slowly preparing for my move to start residency. I'll be in a town that's about an hour and a half from where my parents live. I have all new furniture now, and yesterday I went to go look for an apartment. I still haven't picked my apartment yet, and I may go back down to look at a few more. It's crazy because the apartments that had tons of pictures and good reviews turned out to be the most ugliest and unsafest looking places. Then the places that barely had pictures and had bad reviews online turned out to be the nicest. So I don't really believe all those reviews I read anymore. I'm not too worried, I know I'll find something decent. I know I'm ready to move into my own apartment. I haven't had anytime to myself since I've been living at home.
That's all for now...
Well, then I get home, sign on to Facebook and see that another one of my classmates is engaged. UGH! Then the feeling returns again. I hate this feeling. I really do. I have been single for 5 years now, and it's not getting easier. I'm just tired, frustrated and MAD that I'm allowing this to bother me.
Bleh.
Anyways. I've been slowly preparing for my move to start residency. I'll be in a town that's about an hour and a half from where my parents live. I have all new furniture now, and yesterday I went to go look for an apartment. I still haven't picked my apartment yet, and I may go back down to look at a few more. It's crazy because the apartments that had tons of pictures and good reviews turned out to be the most ugliest and unsafest looking places. Then the places that barely had pictures and had bad reviews online turned out to be the nicest. So I don't really believe all those reviews I read anymore. I'm not too worried, I know I'll find something decent. I know I'm ready to move into my own apartment. I haven't had anytime to myself since I've been living at home.
That's all for now...
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Bad Mood
I've been in such a bad mood lately.
I don't know what it is, but I feel like slapping everyone. It's like everything and everyone irritates me. I'm wondering if it's because I've moved back home and have had my independence taken away. I dunno.
Will be going to Miami again this week. Not sure how I feel about it anymore. At first I was excited, but now I just feel tired. I don't know, last time I went to Miami I just wasn't in the mood to be FABULOUS. I just wanted to lay on the beach all day and be lazy. I'm leaving in a few days and my hair isn't done, my nails aren't done, outfit aren't picked, and I'm not even sure how I'm getting to the airport yet. We'll see, maybe my mood will change.
I've gained too much weight. My problem is that I gain weight in my stomach first. So my belly is looking like I'm a few months pregnant. I need to start working out.
Let me go to sleep.
I don't know what it is, but I feel like slapping everyone. It's like everything and everyone irritates me. I'm wondering if it's because I've moved back home and have had my independence taken away. I dunno.
Will be going to Miami again this week. Not sure how I feel about it anymore. At first I was excited, but now I just feel tired. I don't know, last time I went to Miami I just wasn't in the mood to be FABULOUS. I just wanted to lay on the beach all day and be lazy. I'm leaving in a few days and my hair isn't done, my nails aren't done, outfit aren't picked, and I'm not even sure how I'm getting to the airport yet. We'll see, maybe my mood will change.
I've gained too much weight. My problem is that I gain weight in my stomach first. So my belly is looking like I'm a few months pregnant. I need to start working out.
Let me go to sleep.
Converstion with my Uncle
So today I was feeling the effects of my single hood. I'm usually okay and sometimes I forget that I'm single. However today, I found myself talking a little bit more to God and reminding him that I was still here waiting for him to bring my husband.
Well I'm sitting here in the living room talking to my uncle. So the topic of relationships came up, and he asked me about my boyfriend. "What boyfriend?" was my reply since I don't have one. Then he went on to remind me that I'm already 25 years old and that I should soon be getting married.
It wasn't really what I wanted to hear. My parents are also ready for me to get married, but they aren't really pressuring me. They understand the importance of praying and making sure that I enter a union with someone God has approved of. My uncle was telling me that by 27 I need to find someone.
Whatever.
Well I'm sitting here in the living room talking to my uncle. So the topic of relationships came up, and he asked me about my boyfriend. "What boyfriend?" was my reply since I don't have one. Then he went on to remind me that I'm already 25 years old and that I should soon be getting married.
It wasn't really what I wanted to hear. My parents are also ready for me to get married, but they aren't really pressuring me. They understand the importance of praying and making sure that I enter a union with someone God has approved of. My uncle was telling me that by 27 I need to find someone.
Whatever.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Money
I am just horrible when it comes to money.
I can't wait until I become financially stable.
Lord help me!
I can't wait until I become financially stable.
Lord help me!
Monday, April 2, 2012
MATCH!!!!
So Match Day came and went.
It was a very eventful week. Lots of fun activities, free food, free drinks, dancing and good times with my classmates. My parents even came down.
When I made my rank list, I chose the programs according to location. The closer to home, the higher I ranked it. I honestly didn't want to do it that way, but I wanted my parents to be happy and I thought it could help me save money. I was ok with the program I ranked #1. If I had matched there, I know I would have lived at home during residency. Honestly, that wasn't what I wanted. The program I ranked #2 was the program I really wanted to go to. It's only 1hr 45 min from home, so I was still close enough where I could come home on weekends if I was off and still have my independence.
So when my name was called on March 16, to pick up my envelope I assumed I would be getting my #1 choice. Well, I opened up my envelope and I got my #2 choice!!!!! It was really weird. My parents where a bit shocked and probably a little disappointed because they really wanted me to live at home during residency. However, I was happy. God knew what was in my heart. My prayer was always that God choose where he wanted me to be. I was just going to rank them, and let God choose.
I'm really excited.
I'm just happy.
I moved back home now, and I'm just enjoying the time off I have before residency starts in July!!
It was a very eventful week. Lots of fun activities, free food, free drinks, dancing and good times with my classmates. My parents even came down.
When I made my rank list, I chose the programs according to location. The closer to home, the higher I ranked it. I honestly didn't want to do it that way, but I wanted my parents to be happy and I thought it could help me save money. I was ok with the program I ranked #1. If I had matched there, I know I would have lived at home during residency. Honestly, that wasn't what I wanted. The program I ranked #2 was the program I really wanted to go to. It's only 1hr 45 min from home, so I was still close enough where I could come home on weekends if I was off and still have my independence.
So when my name was called on March 16, to pick up my envelope I assumed I would be getting my #1 choice. Well, I opened up my envelope and I got my #2 choice!!!!! It was really weird. My parents where a bit shocked and probably a little disappointed because they really wanted me to live at home during residency. However, I was happy. God knew what was in my heart. My prayer was always that God choose where he wanted me to be. I was just going to rank them, and let God choose.
I'm really excited.
I'm just happy.
I moved back home now, and I'm just enjoying the time off I have before residency starts in July!!
Friday, March 9, 2012
DONE!!
I am now done with medical school!!!
Friday was my last day! So now I get to relax and enjoy myself until residency starts in July. Graduation isn't until June 2nd. Feels good to be done. It is definitely by God's grace that I am where I am today.
I will be going on a cruise in 2 weeks, and I should also be going to Vegas once my friends can agree on hotel and ticket prices.
I'm excited!!
*I've been trying to buy another pair of Louboutins. I have my eye on the Rolandos. The only problem is that the toe box runs soooooo small, so I've been struggling with finding the right size. The shoes will be delivered tomorrow.
*I've gained about 15 pounds and now weigh about 150lbs. Now everyone is making comments about how I've gotten bigger. I remember when I was 130lbs and everyone was going crazy about how skinny and sickly I looked. I think no one would really comment if I didn't have so much belly fat. So I've started working out and focusing on my mid-section.
That's all for now!
Friday was my last day! So now I get to relax and enjoy myself until residency starts in July. Graduation isn't until June 2nd. Feels good to be done. It is definitely by God's grace that I am where I am today.
I will be going on a cruise in 2 weeks, and I should also be going to Vegas once my friends can agree on hotel and ticket prices.
I'm excited!!
*I've been trying to buy another pair of Louboutins. I have my eye on the Rolandos. The only problem is that the toe box runs soooooo small, so I've been struggling with finding the right size. The shoes will be delivered tomorrow.
*I've gained about 15 pounds and now weigh about 150lbs. Now everyone is making comments about how I've gotten bigger. I remember when I was 130lbs and everyone was going crazy about how skinny and sickly I looked. I think no one would really comment if I didn't have so much belly fat. So I've started working out and focusing on my mid-section.
That's all for now!
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Countdown
12 more days until I'm done with medical school.
26 more days until Match Day.
104 more days until graduation day.
Time is going by so fast!
*Still in search of my graduation shoe. I bought a pair of Christian Louboutins!!! UNFORTUNATELY I had to return them. I got the pigalle plato 120mm in black patent. I was soooo excited when I got them. But when I put them on, it just didn't look right. They looked so fabulous online, but on my feet they didn't look as fabulous. They just didn't have the look I wanted. And for $837 I think the shoes should be PERFECT, so I returned them : ( It was soooooooo hard to put those shoes back in the box knowing that I was going to return them. I'm looking for a fabulous black heel that will complement my dress, and be something that I'll still want to wear 5 years from now.
*One of my best friends is preggers, and I'm soooooo excited!! I can't wait till she has her baby.
*Speaking of babies, I'm officially an aunt now! My brother's wife in Nigeria had a baby girl! She is soooo cute. I really wish I was in Nigeria to hold and kiss and spoil her. Hopefully soon.
*After I took a shower today, I just stopped for a moment and realized that the Lord has brought me a long way. I have really changed, but in a good way. I have learned so much about myself, others, and about life in general. All I can say is THANK YOU LORD! But I know that is still have a looooong way to go.
That's all for now.
26 more days until Match Day.
104 more days until graduation day.
Time is going by so fast!
*Still in search of my graduation shoe. I bought a pair of Christian Louboutins!!! UNFORTUNATELY I had to return them. I got the pigalle plato 120mm in black patent. I was soooo excited when I got them. But when I put them on, it just didn't look right. They looked so fabulous online, but on my feet they didn't look as fabulous. They just didn't have the look I wanted. And for $837 I think the shoes should be PERFECT, so I returned them : ( It was soooooooo hard to put those shoes back in the box knowing that I was going to return them. I'm looking for a fabulous black heel that will complement my dress, and be something that I'll still want to wear 5 years from now.
*One of my best friends is preggers, and I'm soooooo excited!! I can't wait till she has her baby.
*Speaking of babies, I'm officially an aunt now! My brother's wife in Nigeria had a baby girl! She is soooo cute. I really wish I was in Nigeria to hold and kiss and spoil her. Hopefully soon.
*After I took a shower today, I just stopped for a moment and realized that the Lord has brought me a long way. I have really changed, but in a good way. I have learned so much about myself, others, and about life in general. All I can say is THANK YOU LORD! But I know that is still have a looooong way to go.
That's all for now.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Updates
Wow.
So much has happened since my last post.
Christmas was great.
I turned 25 and it was also great.
I went on a date. This guy had been asking me out for awhile so I decided to let him take me out. Went to see Sherlock Holmes and then he took me to Red Lobster. I was very mean to him, and I'm sure he'll never ask me out on a date again. lol But I let him know that I wasn't interested and that I saw him as just a friend.
New Years was also great.
I'm back at school, and I'm on the 2nd half of the surgery rotation. I HATE surgery. I'm at least glad I was placed in pediatric surgery. The babies are sooooo tiny so the longest case is usually 2 hours. All the standing irritates me. I'm extremely irritated when I have to scrub in, but there is no room for me at the table, so I'm just standing or tiptoeing trying to see what's going on while trying to remain sterile. So dumb. I don't understand why they make me scrub in when I'm not going to do anything. I dunno, 2 more weeks till this rotation is over. I have gotten soooooooooooooooooooooooo lazy, it's ridiculous, but I don't care.
And THEN... last week I got a very interesting text message. Well, Mr. Banana sent me a text asking how I was doing. He was asking if I was still single, if I was dating at all, blah blah blah. I was sooo shocked. Why? Because he is married now, and his wife just had a baby. He said he wanted to"share memories." Apparently he kept all texts, pics, emails, and facebook messages that I had sent him in the past. He asked me how I knew that we weren't supposed to be together. He asked if I had ever loved him. He also tried to ask me some VERY inappropriate questions. I had to quickly let him know that what he was doing was WRONG. The past is in the past, I am not that kind of girl and he needs to move on. I haven't even seen this dude in like 4 years. It's very sad, I pray things work out well for them. But I feel like this won't be the last of his shenanigans.
Well that's all for now, gotta wake up early.
So much has happened since my last post.
Christmas was great.
I turned 25 and it was also great.
I went on a date. This guy had been asking me out for awhile so I decided to let him take me out. Went to see Sherlock Holmes and then he took me to Red Lobster. I was very mean to him, and I'm sure he'll never ask me out on a date again. lol But I let him know that I wasn't interested and that I saw him as just a friend.
New Years was also great.
I'm back at school, and I'm on the 2nd half of the surgery rotation. I HATE surgery. I'm at least glad I was placed in pediatric surgery. The babies are sooooo tiny so the longest case is usually 2 hours. All the standing irritates me. I'm extremely irritated when I have to scrub in, but there is no room for me at the table, so I'm just standing or tiptoeing trying to see what's going on while trying to remain sterile. So dumb. I don't understand why they make me scrub in when I'm not going to do anything. I dunno, 2 more weeks till this rotation is over. I have gotten soooooooooooooooooooooooo lazy, it's ridiculous, but I don't care.
And THEN... last week I got a very interesting text message. Well, Mr. Banana sent me a text asking how I was doing. He was asking if I was still single, if I was dating at all, blah blah blah. I was sooo shocked. Why? Because he is married now, and his wife just had a baby. He said he wanted to"share memories." Apparently he kept all texts, pics, emails, and facebook messages that I had sent him in the past. He asked me how I knew that we weren't supposed to be together. He asked if I had ever loved him. He also tried to ask me some VERY inappropriate questions. I had to quickly let him know that what he was doing was WRONG. The past is in the past, I am not that kind of girl and he needs to move on. I haven't even seen this dude in like 4 years. It's very sad, I pray things work out well for them. But I feel like this won't be the last of his shenanigans.
Well that's all for now, gotta wake up early.
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