Been so busy lately.
I am really happy with my residency program. I thank God that I matched here. I get along well with the residents, even though some of them kind of get on my nerves sometimes lol. All my attendings are super nice and they are really there to help us learn. I'm still adjusting though. One day I feel SUPER smart, and the next day I feel completely useless and dumb. There is just sooooo much to learn. I honestly only feel smart 10% of the time, haha. I let the smallest things get to me, and it's something I really need to work on. I thought a patient had hypocalcemia, but I forgot to check the albumin level. So she wasn't really low on calcium. I felt dumb for like 2 whoooole days! I was like, "OMG everybody is going to think I'm so stupid because I forgot to check her albumin levels, and they're going to wonder how the heck I made it out of med school, and then they're going to regret that I matched into their program!!!" I just need to get over it, and accept that I'm going to make mistakes.
I gained some weight. I think this time last year I was 15 pounds lighter. I think I look fine. Yesterday I ate 22 cookies, and I'm eating more as I type. However, my parents and everyone at church thinks I'm fat. I've gone from a size 2 to a size 6. I honestly don't want to lose weight. But there will be no peace unless I lose at least 5 lbs. Nigerian parents can be so silly sometimes. Last year they were shoving food in my face, and praying that I would gain some weight. Now I gained the weight and it's a problem. Bleh
A few months ago I ran into this guy I went to college with at the store. Since then he's been trying to woo me. Prior to this, I had seen him like 5 years ago. Now he keeps telling me that he wants me to marry him.?????? Since I have known this guy, I've probably only talked to him in person for a total of 15 minutes. He's delusional. He has an MPH/MBA, and he ALWAYS has to remind me of it. He even put it as his signature in the facebook messages. Who the heck has a signature on facebook? LAME. He's always sending me pictures of himself all dressed up. But I'm not going to lie, it is very entertaining. So I allow him to think he has a chance so that I have something to make me laugh on those slow nights when I'm on call. I've said some pretty means stuff to him, but he just keeps coming back for more.
That's all for now.
