Random Stuff/Updates

So it's been awhile.

Things are going great I suppose.

Currently in the call room. They're aren't any patients in the ER right now which means I get to lay down and try to sleep. I'm kind of ready to be done with residency. I mean things are going great. I'm just kind of ready to be out on my own I guess. I hate having to be on call and working weekends. I also feel like I've reached a point where I'm able to make my own clinical decisions. There are times where my attending makes me prescribe certain meds and order tests that I don't agree with. I guess it's a sign that I'm learning/growing and developing my own practice style. However, there's still a ton of things I still need to learn.

Ummmmm, what else..... Oh. I've been trying to take better care of myself. Finally went to the dentist since I have free dental insurance now. Found out that I have 12 cavities and that I need a root canal!!!! It's all because I didn't floss since all my cavities are interproximal. SMH.

I've also started working out a little bit more and eating lots of fresh fruits and vegetables. I figured I should try to practice what I've been preaching to my patients.

I'm also struggling to read more books. Man, I remember back in the day I could read a whole novel in a few hours. Now I struggle to get through 2 chapters. My first goal is to re-read the Great Gatsby before the movie comes out. I really hope I can finish it. I have a habit of getting half way through a book and then I'll just throw it aside and start reading another one. I also started reading Madame Bovary, Chocolat, and this other book my Maya Angelou. I failed to finish reading a single book. I need to do better.

Still single, but not worried. My aunty called me like 3 days ago asking me if I was talking to anyone. I said no, and she proceeded to ask my why. She literally told me that she is scared for me because time is "passing by". SMH. I told her to calm down. I am not rushing into anything. My husband will come when God says it is time, and I am not going to force myself to be with anyone just so that I can get married. I remember like 2 months ago at church, almost 6 people asked me about why I was still single. I just need everyone to calm down. I'm not worried, so they shouldn't be either.

I mean, yes I want to get married. No one really wants to be alone, but I understand how important it is to choose wisely. Four years ago I remember I was crying and begging God to bring me a boyfriend ASAP! For some reason, I felt that I needed a boyfriend to make it through medical school. Well God didn't listen to my foolishness and I'm glad. I have gone under a serious transformation physically, emotionally, and spiritually in the past few years. In these last 4-5 years feel like I've finally started on the path that God intended me to be on.  I appreciate my singlehood. I realize now that back then I just wasn't ready for a relationship. Am I ready now? Maybe.

Oh yea, my little sister got into medical school!! She'll be going to the same school I graduated from.

Yea.

I think that's it for now.

STUPID!

Started residency on Monday.

I feel so STUPID! I've been on vacation since March, and I feel like I've forgotten almost everything. It's been kind of hard adjusting to the new electronic medical records in one hospital, while getting used to paper charts in another hospital. No excuses though. I need to work hard and do what I gotta do!!

Earlier this week I also found out that the guy I have had a crush on for well over a year is now MARRIED!!!!!!!!!! I had nooooo idea. I got on his facebook and saw that everyone was congratulating him on his new baby. NEW BABY? I did some further investigation and discovered that he has a wife in Nigeria. WTF. I felt sooooo STUPID.

I'm tired of talking about marriage. Right now I don't really care. I think it bothers my parents way more than it bothers me. I feel like my training and career are more important right now. I'm the only single person in the group of interns in my program. Everyone else is either married or engaged. It really bothered me at first, but now I'm just like WHATEVER!! There is a reason why I am still single, and I know that God is in control.

I'm TIRED! Thank God I'm off tomorrow!

9 years!!!!!!

I know a girl who has been dating a guy for 9 years! Well, she's not a girl, she a woman in a her late 20s. I don't think I could do that. 9 YEARS!!! Things looked a little iffy, and it didn't really look like their relationship was going towards marriage. By looking at them together I felt that if they DID get married it would probably end in divorce. I know that is a horrible thing to say, but I'm being honest. This lady is very beautiful inside and out, smart, hard-working, and with a good career. The guy is...... ummm eh. When I first met her I thought she was sooo fabulous, definitely a role model. I remember seeing some scraggly dude with her, and when she introduced him as her boyfriend I was like "noooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!." I met her about 2 years ago and she was ready for him to put a ring on it. Now they broke up. There is nooooooo way I would be able to stay in a relationship that long without some promise of marriage. 9 freaking years!!!!!! AH AH!!!

I mean I understand that there are special circumstances. Sometimes you're too young, or sometimes you're still in school, or maybe it's a long distance thing.

For example, I have an aunty who went to school to become a doctor of pharmacy. Her husband also was in medical school. They met in their late 20s and were also a little late to go to school and get their degrees. These two dated for a looooooong time.  However everyone knew they were going to get married. The minute they finished school, they got married and had a son.

I was watching Say Yes to the Dress on TLC, and I saw a 50 something year old bride that had been engaged for almost 25 years!!!!!  They had lots of problems and illness in the family and they kept pushing back their wedding. CRAZY!!!!!

My goodness!!!!

I think it's different if you KNOW that you two are going to get married, as opposed to one person in the relathionship HOPING that there will be a proposal.

I told my mom and she said it's because the guy is an Akata (the girl is Nigerian). I'm not even gonna go there. lol.