Sunday, April 11, 2010

Anti- Socialite

I've been so irritated lately. Lately it's just been me, myself and I. Oh yea, and my books. I study so much that I just get too tired to interact with people. I despise going to school because I'm sick of seeing my classmates, and I don't want to talk to them. I don't want to talk to ANYBODY right now. I'm ready to get this stupid exam over with so I can go home and see my family. I am soooo home sick. UGH!

Lord help me.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Mr. Banana

"....infidelity is not who you lie with, its whom you lie to"

This is what I just saw on this guy's status on facebook. We'll call him Mr. Banana. I met Mr. Banana at the end of November of 2008. I met him online and found out he went to my college, so we would talk and hang out at school, etc. For about 5 months we kind of dated and had some weird fling. At first I was head over heels and I was certain I would marry this guy. But I quickly realized I didn't really like him that much. I was also about to move away for med school and I didn't want to try the whole long distance relationship thing. It was odd, cuz every other week, he would ask me when I was going to get a boyfriend. I would tell him I didn't know, but I was not ready for one at the moment. Then he would say that he wasn't ready for one either. In the beginning, we agreed that we were just having fun, and that our relationship/friendship was nothing serious. But I can recall SEVERAL times where he would get mad at things, and I'd have to remind him that he wasn't my boyfriend. So at the end of April 2008, I told him straight up that I did not like him, and that I only saw him as a friend. All he said was "WOW." So I moved away for school. A few months later, I came home to visit, and he wanted to hang out. He was trying to kiss and touch, and he was still asking about the boyfriend thing. But my answer was still NO.

Well, 2 days later, I get on facebook and all of a sudden he is 'in a relationship' and he posts a butt load of pics of his girlfriend with his mom and sister, their trip to New york, and all these other random couple photos. I was REALLLY confused. So he had a girlfriend, but he was still trying to get at me? What? I left it alone and figured it was a good thing because now he could leave me alone, right? WRONG. Since then, Mr. Banana has STILL been sending me random a** text messages about how he misses me blah blah blah. Last year around October was when things go REALLY crazy. He sent me some questionable text messages and pictures of himself. I assumed he broke up with his girlfriend and I even went on facebook to check. He had taken of 'in a relationship. So I was like... okay they did brake up. Around that time I WAS feeling a little lonely and I got to a point where I was trying to figure out why I didn't like Mr. Banana. He was perfect on paper. Good job, funny, smart, tall, speaks yoruba, and everything else on my list. But I just wasn't feeling him back then. So I started thinking maybe I was just being a bitch. So he called me, and we started reminiscing about all the fun times we had. I decided to ask him about what happened with him and his girlfriend, and he tells me that they are still together. W T F? So I keep asking questions and find out that his girlfriend is a virgin and she wants to wait till marriage. He basically wanted to use me. He said that his girlfriend didn't care if he was messing around with other girls as long as he didn't tell her about it. He had already had sex with some other female. WHAT???? I told him that I was NOT that type of girl. I'm not a sideline ho/home wrecker. I get on facebook a few weeks later. BAM!! they're engaged and getting married at the end of this year.

I thought, finally, he'll stop talking to me. WRONG. A few weeks ago he sent me MORE messages about how he was thinking about me... blah blah blah. I mean, seriously?

So when I saw his facebook status I was like S T F U!


The whole situation with him scared me a little. I stopped whining over the fact that I didn't have a boo. I don't want to rush into any relationship with just anyone. I don't want to be anyone's #2. I'm going to take things slow, and wait for someone that I REEEEAAALLY like and someone that REEEAAALLY likes me. Some real L-O-V-E.

"Don't settle for the one you can live with, wait for the one you can't live without."

Thursday, March 11, 2010

WOWZERS

mannnnnnnnnn

something happened today. It was one of those situations where you thought someone had your back, and then BAM! they disappoint you. But it's okay. I'm just gonna brush it off. I expect NOTHING from NO ONE! I learned a long time ago that I can't trust anyone. All my trust is in the Lord.

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I have not watched T.V. since Feb. 17!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it. I watch WAY too much T.V. and it was starting to interfere with my studies, so I decided to give up T.V. for awhile. At first it was for lent, But then I was like.... why not give up T.V. until after boards? So I don't plan on watching T.V. again until Jun. 1, 2010. But there are a few exceptions. It's okay if I watch t.v. at someone's house if it just so happens to be on, or if someone comes over, then I'll let them turn on my t.v. I'm just not allowing myself to watch any tv shows/ movies (even online) when I'm alone. I didn't think I could do it. I remember when I first unplugged it, I almost started crying and my body was shaking, I felt like a crackhead. I can't believe how addicted I was. Back in October, I watched the first 5 seasons of The Office in 2 weeks AND all the seasons of 30 Rock in like 1 week. I sit in front of the t.v. for HOURS watching nonsense! Keep in mind that I am in medical school and my a** is supposed to be studying. I probably would have gotten 100s on my tests if I wasn't wasting all my time. Now I'm finally focused and studying like I should be. Board exams are right around the corner!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I've been having SUCH bad luck with guys.

Remember that cute boy I saw at church a few weeks back? Well he came to church again. And I was so happy, and I actually got to talk to him. By the end of the day I was already combining my first name with his last name and it sounded sooo perfect.

UNTIL...

I was leaving and one of my aunties yells across the parking lot and says to him, "OH (insert name here) how are you!!! Omo yin ko??" translation... he has a child. My heart was broken. I try my best to avoid guys with kids. And the following Sunday he brought his son to church. He's like 1 yr old. He's sooooo adorable, but I just can't do it. Anyways, I don't know if he liked me, so let me stop acting like something would have happened. HA!

AND THEN...

a few weeks ago I met a guy at KROGER! IN THE BREAD ISLE!! He asked me which bread was the best, and I proceeded to tell him about how to get the most fiber content per slice. It was really cute. And he turned out to be a 4th yr med student that went to school in Cali, but was here for an away rotation. AND he was Nigerian. So he asked me for number and I gave it to him and we planned on hanging out on that Friday after my exam. Well, the night before the exam, he sends me some funny sounding texts. ( I wish I didn't delete them so I could write what he said word-for-word). Anyways, it went something like this

Boy: good luck on test 2morrow
Me: thnx
Boy: so.. how do you want to be treated after a long daunting final exam
Me: lol.. what do you mean?
Boy: What do you normally do after you take exams
Me: I just sit on my couch and do nothing
Boy: You're boring, but don't worry I'M GONNA SPICE YOU UP LIKE A CHILI PEPPER IN A
BURRITO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: WTF does that mean? I hope you're not talking about sex.. cuz I don't get down
like that.

once he made the chili pepper burrito comment, I should have left him alone.

So we ended up hanging out that Friday after my test, and it was HORRIBLE. He ended up being MUCH shorter than I thought he was, and he was SOOOO irritating. He kept trying to touch/cuddle/kiss me. And he was RUDE. He kept calling me skinny and saying I needed a bigger booty. And because I wouldn't have sex with him he kept telling me I was 'putting up walls' and that I must have been seriously hurt in one of my past relationship. AND THEN homeboy tried to give me a lap dance and was gyrating on my leg. Since I didn't want to dance with him, out of no where he calls me an AKATA!!!!! i was like "WHAT DID YOU CALL ME?" I was sooooooooooooooooooooo mad. I am NOT an AKATA. That was it. And homeboy was 30, soon to be 31. I assumed that by that age you would know what NOT to do with the opposite sex. I ignored his texts and calls after that.

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Hair News: I blew my hair out!!! I tried it yesterday and it was a FAIL. I don't know what I did wrong, but right after I blew it out, my fro instantly shrank back. Maybe I put too much leave-in conditioner and heat protectant spray. I was using two different kinds of spray for EXTRA protection but I think that was unnecessary. But I tried again today with just one heat protectant spray and the end result was FAB U LOUS!!! I was sooo happy. My hair feels SO soft! It's like a cloud!






so yea......

Let me go and do some Qbank questions before I go to bed.

Goodnite!!!!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

more thoughts

well. my weekend was okay. Had a test on Friday, so I didn't do much on Saturday. Went to go get my oil changed, and it was the first time I had to take care of it because my dad usually does all that stuff. I thought it was going to cost like 30 dollars and it ended up being 65 dollars! I was like WTF!! but oh well.

I need to step up my study game. Got to get ready for boards.

Went to church today. It was very nice, refreshing, inspiring. I always feel 10X better about things in my life whenever I go to church. And its just nice to be around a whole bunch of Nigerians. Also saw a new boy at church today. I'm not sure if he's coming back, or maybe he was just visiting. But he was really cute. I'm not really boy crazy, so it's usually a big deal if I find a guy that I think is really cute. He's tall, light skinned, looks strong, speaks yoruba. I wasn't staring at him, and I only saw him from a distance, so he might not be as cute as I'm imagining. I normally don't like light skinned guys, but lately I've been more attracted to them. I LOOOOVE Yoruba speaking guys. Lets see what happens.

I'm in the process of getting my sexy back. I'm really weird because I loose weight SOOOO FAST. If I ran around a track once at full speed, I'd probably drop a pant size the next day. But then its sooo hard for me to gain the weight back. The first place I lose weight is in my butt and thighs, and I like my butt and thighs. But when I gain weight it goes to my stomach and my shoulders get wider... its really weird. I weight about 145 and dropped down to 130... and I'm trying to get back to at least 140. I'm tired of my jeans sagging. But either way, I realized I still need to exercise since its good for my health. I'm just gonna stick to yoga/pilates, etc. I just need to tone up even if the weight doesn't come back.

whatever. let me go get ready for tomorrow.

Adios!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

NEW YEAR!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Hope this year will be a year filled with blessings for everyone!!!!

So every year I try to make new years resolutions...

1. Keep my apartment clean!!!!!! (especially during test weeks!)
2. Read my bible everyday
3. Try to read one novel every 2 months
4. Find a boo!!! hahahaha j/k
5. Study more and watch less t.v. ( I've already cancelled my netflix until after boards)
6. Save money

I have a serious problem when it comes to saving money. I do NOT know how to stick to a budget. I need to cut back on expenses. Less online shopping and less sushi. I'm a product junkie!! I buy WAY to many hair products, soaps, lotions, facial cleansers, etc. I need to STOP!

ok, enough of that.

So today, I went out with an old flame. We had this really weird best friend/lover thing going on a few years ago. It lasted about 3ish years. I loved him, and I still do, and always will. But it was REALLLLLY weird. We kind of ended things on a bad note and it seemed like we would never talk again, but somewhere along the way be started talking again. I think I never truly got over him since our 'friendship' ended so abruptly. So when we decided to meet up, I was sooo excited and thought that I would fall deeply in love all over again and end up marrying him. But after seeing him for the first time in a long time, I realized the spark was gone. The twinkle that I used to see in his eye was no longer there. I still care for him deeply, but the lovey dovey ooooh aaaah baby stuff has disappeared. And the weird thing is... I was happy that I felt that way. It made me realize that I had grown. I'm not the same person I was 3-4 years ago. For so long I kept thinking "what if?" What if we actually gave the boyfriend/girlfriend thing a serious try? I kept thinking that I'd left my one true love behind. My heart would ache so bad, and then I'd take out pictures of him and just daydream. But now I know we were not meant to be together forever. Because of the time we spent together, I know EXACTLY what I'm looking for in a significant other. I know how I am supposed to feel. I know how someone that loves me is supposed to treat me. I could go on and on... blah blah blha. You get the point. But I'm hoping he feels the same way, that would finalize the FRIENDS ONLY status.

So yea, we went to see Avatar. DID NO LIKE! It was not my type of movie, and it was way too long. And it was kind of weird. But oh well.

Ok, I need to go to bed.

Monday, December 28, 2009

"Thank God For Technology!"

So today we finally got to video chat with my family back in Nigeria. It was soooo nice. I still can't believe I haven't been to Nigeria yet. I can't wait!! I pray that 2010 will finally be the year that I get to go visit my brother, aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandma.

Feeling good, Feeling great!!! and trying not to think about school starting next Monday.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

More Random Ish

sooooo.. its been a while since my last post. Kind of forgot I had a blog.

Hope everyone had a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

This year has gone by so fast! My birthday is in 2 more days. I will be 23 years old! Not really planning on doing anything. I hate celebrating birthdays. I'm happy with just staying at home... and just chilling. Or maybe little bit of shopping, but nothing major. But EVERY year my friends find a way to talk me into doing something. Oh well. I think for the first time I actually feel my age. I don't really know how 23 is supposed to feel.... but I feel it. lol

I'm still without a boo. And I'm okay with it. I met a guy at church... but I don't like him. He keeps calling, but I don 't really know how to tell him that I don't like him. Normally I would straight up say " I don't like you".... BUT I'm gonna have to see him like every Sunday, so I have to be nice about it. I've only been talking to him for about 2 weeks, and he decided to give me a Christmas gift. He got me one of those Sephora perfume sets... which is SUPER cool. It comes with like 10 different perfumes. You pick the one you like the best and then turn in some certificate and you get a FREE full size bottle. Soooo COOL!!

Went to the movies by myself today and saw It's Complicated. I love Alec Baldwin and Meryl Streep! I have a crush on Alec Baldwin... hahaha. It was a cute movie.

Currenlty listening to Banky W's new album... LOVE IT!!! I love Naija music... and I love Naija boys!!! Still waiting for my Naija prince to sweep me off my feet!! Would like to find a super sexy yoruba speaking boy that's tall, funny, intelligent and yummy.... sigh. Oh well. We'll see what happens.

ummmm, that's all for now.