I dunno

Well.

I think I mentioned this person before. I called her "Tammy." Well I've been trying to avoid this person for awhile. We were like bffs during my 1st year of med school and through a portion of my 2nd year. Well, she's not the greatest person, and I  learned this the hard way. I just didn't like how I felt around her and wanted her out of my life completely. So lately I've been avoiding her. For a time I even blocked her calls and texts. I don't know what happened but this person would just make me SOOO angry. Just seeing her facebook picture would make me think mean thoughts. I remember I wanted to tell her that I didn't want to be her friend anymore, but my parents told me not to. They said that was not the Christian thing to do.

I just didn't want to be around her anymore. When I decided I didn't want to be around her, simply running into her around town would instantly raise my blood pressure. I would just get mad, and it was like I was ready to fight at any second.

Well a few days ago she sent me a message about how she missed me and wanted to hang out, and wanted to know if I was still in town. I didn't respond. I was determined to let this girl KNOW that I didn't want to be her friend anymore. I didn't care if I was mean. I didn't care about her feelings. I just DIDN'T CARE!!!

I told my sister, and she said I was wrong for that. I told my mom, and she ALSO said I was wrong for that. She said it was not right for me to ignore her and try to avoid her. It would be different if she never called/contacted me again. But for the fact that she was still trying to be my friend, my family said I was wrong.

This made me ANGRY. Why was I ALWAYS the one that had to be nice. She was bad to me, so why couldn't I be bad to her? I know she doesn't truly care about my well being, so why the heck should I care about her? I have NEVERRRRR felt this way toward someone, and I felt I was allowed to be mean to someone at least once in my life.

But my family kept telling me it's not the Christian way. 

I remember listening to a sermon about unfruitful people in your life, and how they can negatively impact you. So I felt that this person was indeed unfruitful, so why couldn't I cut her out of my life? Isn't that what God would want me to do? This is something I really struggle with. I have been praying and asking God for guidance on the matter, but I just get so ANGRY and it's hard for me to let go of that anger.

I dunno.