Long Time

It's been awhile since I've posted something. Lots of interesting things have been happening. Well, I think they're interesting.

Christmas and New Years were good.

I turned 24.

I'm almost done with 3rd yr... only 3 more weeks left.

I've gotten lazier.

I'm getting ready to start applying for residency soon. SCARY!

I'm SUPER broke right now. Haven't been this broke before. My parents are having to give me $$ for gas and food. I was way off with my budgeting last semester and didn't save enough for this semester :(

I got back on twitter last month.

The EX wants me back. I saw him last week and he was trying to hug me all extra tight and stuff. I was like WTF! I was so shocked because he currently has a girlfriend. But he doesn't know that I know that he has a girlfriend. LOL. So how did I find out? Well I was on facebook in December and I commented on a friend's picture. A few seconds later I get a notification that someone else made a comment. So I decided to check out this person's profile. I'm looking through her profile pics and BAM! I see that she's all hugged up and kissy kissy with the EX! I burst into laughter when I saw it. I'm totally cuter than her. So because I have no life, I go to her page every now and then just to see if she has any interesting updates. According to her facebook statuses, they broke up a few months ago and recently got back together. So this is why I was so shocked that the EX was all up on me and asking if we could hang out because I knew that he was in a relationship. Oh well. Now his mom is even talking about me marrying her son. HA! NEVER. He had his chance and I'm moving on to bigger and better things.
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Few months ago I went to hang out with my egbon (my big brother). He is more like a "play brother." Our family's are very close and have known each other for a very long time. I've just never really spent much time talking or hanging out with him. We kind of reconnected in December that day before my birthday when I went to a naming ceremony at his Dad's church. Since then, we chat on facebook every now and then. Nothing major. He has a friend that I think is kind of cute. I was bored one day and decided to add his friend on facebook so that I could get full access to his profile. LOL. Well a few weeks ago my egbon comes to my area to visit and he's like oh I brought my best friend. So I realized that he's probably talking about his cute friend that I'm stalking on facebook so I go meet up with them. We end up at a graduation party for one of his friends and afterwards we go to some weird reggae club. His cute friend WAS there, and I was totally hoping that he would see me and fall in love with me. Well that did NOT happen. At the graduation party he was talking to some girl. She was cute, but I thought I was cuter. LOL. When we went to the reggae club he was all up on some tall tacky looking girl with a big butt. My egbon was even talking to some chic when he KNEW he had a girlfriend back at home. My egbon and his friend ended up bringing both girls back to his friends apt (where they were staying). I was SOOOOOO disgusted. Couldn't believe that those girls left the club with 2 men that they know nothing about. They could have been rapist or killers. And I was so dissapointed in my egbon for bringing random girls back when he KNEW he had a girlfriend. I was also sad cuz my cutie pie crush brought back some tacky girl when I wanted him to talk to me! Seeing that really worried me. I started thinking "JEEZ, are all men like this? and is this what my future boyfriend is going to be doing?"

I eventually brushed it off. Not sure if I will go anywhere with them again. They literally abandoned me so that the could ride home with their ashewos.

I am putting my heart in God's hands. I know that he will not fail me.
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I should totally be studying right now.

Well, ttyl!

Update

Tomorrow is my last day of pedi inpatient!! yay!

But it made me realize I loooove babies! Can't wait till I have one.

My car is broken. Last person that said they were gonna fix it only fixed half of it. So I'm hoping it will get TOTALLY fixed before I go home next weekend. I'm soooo happy to be going back home!!!

I need money... so I can shop shop shop. I need a bigger closet. This little hole in the wall I have right now is NOT cuttin it!

I'm doin good. Feeling good. I'm happy.

: )

Really?

Soooo. The other day I'm just minding my business in the Pedi Endocrine office and I get a phone call. It was my friend saying that her bf found a Nigerian guy for me. So her bf thinks I'm like super lonely, and thinks that it's really sad that I've been single for 3ish years, so he was TRYING to help me out. So I ask her what he looks like. And she's like I dunno. She wanted me to DRIVE down to her bf job so that I could accidentally run into the guy. UMMMMM NO. I don't do that and I'm not that desperate. So I tell her to tell her bf to take a pic. I wasn't expecting much, about a minute later, I get the picture............................................................

All I could say was eeew. He was NOT attractive in any way shape of form. I was actually offended when I saw the picture. He said he was 24, but he like 44. It was a mess. I could NOT believe he thought I would date someone like that.


Anyways, I don't know what has gotten in to me lately. I've been shopping WAAAAY to much. I'm going to struggle and not spend anything until Christmas time. Let's see how well that goes.

DANG!!

I was doing sooooo well!!! I was okay with being single. I've been feeling fierce and fabulous for the past couple of months. Now all of a sudden I've got the single female blues! FAIL. Mr. Banana got married like 2 weeks ago and I was totally ok with it. I don't have feelings for him or anything so it's not like I was sad that he was getting married. I got a gift for him and the bride (something my friends said I shouldn't have done) and I was feeling totally ok. Today he sent me a text saying thanks for the gift. I asked how it felt to be married and he said it was great. And then all of a sudden I just started feeling exxxxtra lonely. Then I started day dreaming about being married, having someone to hold, kiss, share your life with etc. I mean I'm always daydreaming about that stuff.... but today it just kind of hurt for some reason. I'm starting to get restless. Everywhere I go, I wonder if I'm about to bump into my future husband. It's really sad. Really really sad. I wish the feeling would go AWAY, but I can't seem to control it anymore. Maybe after med school, during residency? Sigh. Oh well, I better suck it up and go on about my business.

I started reading that book, I Kissed Dating Goodbye, I think it's by Josh Harris. I wish I had read this book before I started high school. It would have save me from a lot of drama, heart ache and pain. I don't 100% agree with everything I've read so far, but he does have some pretty valid points.

I just need to do better.

Just whatever

so yea. I'm back home now for my family med rotation. Feels good to be home. I've gained 4 lbs and I've only been home for 1 week.

Just been feeling like whatever lately. Feeling really tired and lazy right now.

I'm still waiting. Don't know when it's going to happen. Don't know where I'm going to meet him. I'm just waiting. Going about my business, and taking things one day at a time. But every now and then I just get that feeling. Like it would be nice to have someone to go the movies with, or have someone to cuddle with. Sometimes I miss having those late night conversations when you first meet a guy. Sometimes I wonder what he's going to look like. How tall is he going to be? Will I be swept of my feet? I have no idea. I just have to wait and see what God has in store for me.

So yea.

ugh

I hate med school right now. Hope it gets better when I get to another rotation.

Updates

It's 12:04am and I should be studying for my surgery shelf exam, or sleeping. But instead I'm blogging, watching t.v. and online shopping. I was super scared about my surgery rotation but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Yesterday was my last trauma call. I still don't want to be a surgeon though. I so excited, I just found out that I get to go home for my family medicine rotation. ONE MONTH AT HOME!!!! That means I get to go to the state fair this year! And I get to eat my mommy's good food!!! And I get to see my friends!! YAY!!!


My grandmother died July 16. It was very unexpected. We were planning on going to Nigeria to visit her this December. My mom hasn't gone back to Nigerian since she left 20+ years ago. She just wanted to see her mom before she died. So when my dad called me and told me the news, I was so devastated. I didn't know what to do or say. I just cried. She wasn't supposed to die yet. I wanted to finally meet her. I wanted her to meet my future husband. I wanted her to hold her great-grand kids. My heart was hurting for my mother because I know how badly she wanted to see her mom. But what can you do? When God says it's time, it's time. Rest in peace grandma. I love you.