Bad Mood

I've been in such a bad mood lately.

I don't know what it is, but I feel like slapping everyone. It's like everything and everyone irritates me. I'm wondering if it's because I've moved back home and have had my independence taken away. I dunno.

Will be going to Miami again this week. Not sure how I feel about it anymore. At first I was excited, but now I just feel tired. I don't know, last time I went to Miami I just wasn't in the mood to be FABULOUS. I just wanted to lay on the beach all day and be lazy. I'm leaving in a few days and my hair isn't done, my nails aren't done, outfit aren't picked, and I'm not even sure how I'm getting to the airport yet. We'll see, maybe my mood will change.

I've gained too much weight. My problem is that I gain weight in my stomach first. So my belly is looking like I'm a few months pregnant. I need to start working out.

Let me go to sleep.

Converstion with my Uncle

So today I was feeling the effects of my single hood. I'm usually okay and sometimes I forget that I'm single. However today, I found myself talking a little bit more to God and reminding him that I was still here waiting for him to bring my husband.

Well I'm sitting here in the living room talking to my uncle. So the topic of relationships came up, and he asked me about my boyfriend. "What boyfriend?" was my reply since I don't have one. Then he went on to remind me that I'm already 25 years old and that I should soon be getting married.

It wasn't really what I wanted to hear. My parents are also ready for me to get married, but they aren't really pressuring me. They understand the importance of praying and making sure that I enter a union with someone God has approved of. My uncle was telling me that by 27 I need to find someone.

 Whatever.

Money

I am just horrible when it comes to money.

I can't wait until I become financially stable.

Lord help me!

MATCH!!!!

So Match Day came and went.

It was a very eventful week. Lots of fun activities, free food, free drinks, dancing and good times with my classmates. My parents even came down.

When I made my rank list, I chose the programs according to location. The closer to home, the higher I ranked it. I honestly didn't want to do it that way, but I wanted my parents to be happy and I thought it could help me save money. I was ok with the program I ranked #1. If I had matched there, I know I would have lived at home during residency. Honestly, that wasn't what I wanted. The program I ranked #2 was the program I really wanted to go to. It's only 1hr 45 min from home, so I was still close enough where I could come home on weekends if I was off and still have my independence.

So when my name was called on March 16, to pick up my envelope I assumed I would be getting my #1 choice. Well, I opened up my envelope and I got my #2 choice!!!!! It was really weird. My parents where a bit shocked and probably a little disappointed because they really wanted me to live at home during residency. However, I was happy. God knew what was in my heart. My prayer was always that God choose where he wanted me to be. I was just going to rank them, and let God choose.

I'm really excited.

I'm just happy.

I moved back home now, and I'm just enjoying the time off I have before residency starts in July!!

DONE!!

I am now done with medical school!!!

Friday was my last day! So now I get to relax and enjoy myself until residency starts in July. Graduation isn't until June 2nd. Feels good to be done. It is definitely by God's grace that I am where I am today.

I will be going on a cruise in 2 weeks, and I should also be going to Vegas once my friends can agree on hotel and ticket prices.

I'm excited!!

*I've been trying to buy another pair of Louboutins. I have my eye on the Rolandos. The only problem is that the toe box runs soooooo small, so I've been struggling with finding the right size. The shoes will be delivered tomorrow.

*I've gained about 15 pounds and now weigh about 150lbs. Now everyone is making comments about how I've gotten bigger. I remember when I was 130lbs and everyone was going crazy about how skinny and sickly I looked. I think no one would really comment if I didn't have so much belly fat. So I've started working out and focusing on my mid-section.

That's all for now!

Countdown

12 more days until I'm done with medical school.

26 more days until Match Day.

104 more days until graduation day.

Time is going by so fast!

*Still in search of my graduation shoe. I bought a pair of Christian Louboutins!!! UNFORTUNATELY I had to return them. I got the pigalle plato 120mm in black patent. I was soooo excited when I got them. But when I put them on, it just didn't look right. They looked so fabulous online, but on my feet they didn't look as fabulous. They just didn't have the look I wanted. And for $837 I think the shoes should be PERFECT, so I returned them : (     It was soooooooo hard to put those shoes back in the box knowing that I was going to return them. I'm looking for a fabulous black heel that will complement my dress, and be something that I'll still want to wear 5 years from now.

*One of my best friends is preggers, and I'm soooooo excited!! I can't wait till she has her baby.

*Speaking of babies, I'm officially an aunt now! My brother's wife in Nigeria had a baby girl! She is soooo cute. I really wish I was in Nigeria to hold and kiss and spoil her.  Hopefully soon.

*After I took a shower today, I just stopped for a moment and realized that the Lord has brought me a long way. I have really changed, but in a good way. I have learned so much about myself, others, and about life in general. All I can say is THANK YOU LORD! But I know that is still have a looooong way to go.

That's all for now.

Updates

Wow.

So much has happened since my last post.

Christmas was great.

I turned 25 and it was also great.

I went on a date. This guy had been asking me out for awhile so I decided to let him take me out. Went to see Sherlock Holmes and then he took me to Red Lobster. I was very mean to him, and I'm sure he'll never ask me out on a date again. lol But I let him know that I wasn't interested and that I saw him as just a friend.

New Years was also great.

I'm back at school, and I'm on the 2nd half of the surgery rotation. I HATE surgery. I'm at least glad I was placed in pediatric surgery. The babies are sooooo tiny so the longest case is usually 2 hours. All the standing irritates me. I'm extremely irritated when I have to scrub in, but there is no room for me at the table, so I'm just standing or tiptoeing trying to see what's going on while trying to remain sterile. So dumb. I don't understand why they make me scrub in when I'm not going to do anything. I dunno, 2 more weeks till this rotation is over. I have gotten soooooooooooooooooooooooo lazy, it's ridiculous, but I don't care.

And THEN... last week I got a very interesting text message. Well, Mr. Banana sent me a text asking how I was doing. He was asking if I was still single, if I was dating at all, blah blah blah. I was sooo shocked. Why? Because he is married now, and his wife just had a baby. He said he wanted to"share memories." Apparently he kept all texts, pics, emails, and facebook messages that I had sent him in the past. He asked me how I knew that we weren't supposed to be together. He asked if I had ever loved him. He also tried to ask me some VERY inappropriate questions. I had to quickly let him know that what he was doing was WRONG. The past is in the past, I am not that kind of girl and he needs to move on. I haven't even seen this dude in like 4 years. It's very sad, I pray things work out well for them. But I feel like this won't be the last of his shenanigans.

Well that's all for now, gotta wake up early.