STUPID!

Started residency on Monday.

I feel so STUPID! I've been on vacation since March, and I feel like I've forgotten almost everything. It's been kind of hard adjusting to the new electronic medical records in one hospital, while getting used to paper charts in another hospital. No excuses though. I need to work hard and do what I gotta do!!

Earlier this week I also found out that the guy I have had a crush on for well over a year is now MARRIED!!!!!!!!!! I had nooooo idea. I got on his facebook and saw that everyone was congratulating him on his new baby. NEW BABY? I did some further investigation and discovered that he has a wife in Nigeria. WTF. I felt sooooo STUPID.

I'm tired of talking about marriage. Right now I don't really care. I think it bothers my parents way more than it bothers me. I feel like my training and career are more important right now. I'm the only single person in the group of interns in my program. Everyone else is either married or engaged. It really bothered me at first, but now I'm just like WHATEVER!! There is a reason why I am still single, and I know that God is in control.

I'm TIRED! Thank God I'm off tomorrow!

I'M A DOCTOR!!!!

I'm a doctor now!!!! Praise GOD!!!

Haven't been on this thing in over a month.

Anyways, graduation was like 2 weeks ago. I walked across the stage in my Christian Louboutins to receive my doctorate degree. Everything went well. About 50ish people came to the graduation (you know Nigerians roll deep). I'm sure more people would have attended if my school wasn't 4 hours away. I had a a special thanksgiving service at church the week after and that was also a success. I got LOTS of money!!! haha. Well it's all gone now. I used all that money to pay the rent in my new apartment and to buy all those random things that are needed when you move into a new place.

I've moved into my new apartment and orientation starts June 25th. Official first day of residency is July 2nd!!!!! Crazy!! The time is just flying by!!

Nothing else major has happened.

That's all for now.

:)

Just You?

Yesterday was one of my best friend's birthday. We went out to eat at a really swanky restaurant in the nicer part of town. I also finally got to wear my new Bottega Veneta black pumps. She brought her boyfriend, which was cool. My other best friend also brought her boyfriend along. That was something that I was not expecting. So it was a little awkward and I kind of felt like the 5th wheel. I felt okay until the end when the waiter asked how to split the check. "So them two, them two, and just you? right?"  Right. That was when I was well aware that I was still single. I said a prayer and said Lord, this time next year I want to have someone to go on dinners with me and my girlfriends. I eventually got over it on the ride home.

Well, then I get home, sign on to Facebook and see that another one of my classmates is engaged. UGH! Then the feeling returns again. I hate this feeling. I really do. I have been single for 5 years now, and it's not getting easier. I'm just tired, frustrated and MAD that I'm allowing this to bother me.

Bleh.

Anyways. I've been slowly preparing for my move to start residency. I'll be in a town that's about an hour and a half from where my parents live. I have all new furniture now, and yesterday I went to go look for an apartment. I still haven't picked my apartment yet, and I may go back down to look at a few more. It's crazy because the apartments that had tons of pictures and good reviews turned out to be the most ugliest and unsafest looking places. Then the places that barely had pictures and had bad reviews online turned out to be the nicest. So I don't really believe all those reviews I read anymore. I'm not too worried, I know I'll find something decent. I know I'm ready to move into my own apartment. I haven't had anytime to myself since I've been living at home.

That's all for now...

Bad Mood

I've been in such a bad mood lately.

I don't know what it is, but I feel like slapping everyone. It's like everything and everyone irritates me. I'm wondering if it's because I've moved back home and have had my independence taken away. I dunno.

Will be going to Miami again this week. Not sure how I feel about it anymore. At first I was excited, but now I just feel tired. I don't know, last time I went to Miami I just wasn't in the mood to be FABULOUS. I just wanted to lay on the beach all day and be lazy. I'm leaving in a few days and my hair isn't done, my nails aren't done, outfit aren't picked, and I'm not even sure how I'm getting to the airport yet. We'll see, maybe my mood will change.

I've gained too much weight. My problem is that I gain weight in my stomach first. So my belly is looking like I'm a few months pregnant. I need to start working out.

Let me go to sleep.

Converstion with my Uncle

So today I was feeling the effects of my single hood. I'm usually okay and sometimes I forget that I'm single. However today, I found myself talking a little bit more to God and reminding him that I was still here waiting for him to bring my husband.

Well I'm sitting here in the living room talking to my uncle. So the topic of relationships came up, and he asked me about my boyfriend. "What boyfriend?" was my reply since I don't have one. Then he went on to remind me that I'm already 25 years old and that I should soon be getting married.

It wasn't really what I wanted to hear. My parents are also ready for me to get married, but they aren't really pressuring me. They understand the importance of praying and making sure that I enter a union with someone God has approved of. My uncle was telling me that by 27 I need to find someone.

 Whatever.

Money

I am just horrible when it comes to money.

I can't wait until I become financially stable.

Lord help me!

MATCH!!!!

So Match Day came and went.

It was a very eventful week. Lots of fun activities, free food, free drinks, dancing and good times with my classmates. My parents even came down.

When I made my rank list, I chose the programs according to location. The closer to home, the higher I ranked it. I honestly didn't want to do it that way, but I wanted my parents to be happy and I thought it could help me save money. I was ok with the program I ranked #1. If I had matched there, I know I would have lived at home during residency. Honestly, that wasn't what I wanted. The program I ranked #2 was the program I really wanted to go to. It's only 1hr 45 min from home, so I was still close enough where I could come home on weekends if I was off and still have my independence.

So when my name was called on March 16, to pick up my envelope I assumed I would be getting my #1 choice. Well, I opened up my envelope and I got my #2 choice!!!!! It was really weird. My parents where a bit shocked and probably a little disappointed because they really wanted me to live at home during residency. However, I was happy. God knew what was in my heart. My prayer was always that God choose where he wanted me to be. I was just going to rank them, and let God choose.

I'm really excited.

I'm just happy.

I moved back home now, and I'm just enjoying the time off I have before residency starts in July!!